Med School, Mad Life

Al- Fatihah. To Muhammad Hafiz Izzuddin Bin Hasin. Who left this world in the morning of 13 Ramadhan 1438, around 1 o'clock in the morning. He was young, my age to be exact. I didn't know arwah personally. Actually I didn't know him at all. Yet, I felt this loss and grieve which is new to me. Maybe it's because he was the same age as I am. Maybe because he went to the same foundation as I did. It's strange how I could actually be in the same place as this person yet, we never crossed paths. Even when my friends mention his name at me, There wasn't a spark in my brain that could trigger any memory of him. Not even a flicker. But strangely, in the past week, I kept thinking i should visit him. I even tell my wishes to one of my housemate, that I felt bad for not visiting him, for not knowing him eventhough we studied in the same university for two years. My housemates told me it's okay, maybe you should go visit him, along with anther one of my fo...

I am a medic student in alexandria, egypt 1st year. As someone who's been there , done that I'm sure there are some lepasan spm or asasi considered to sambung studies here, also in egypt. So I'm gonna tell a lil bit about the process and the life here. The medic Program here is 6 years, so basically you can fly straight to egypt without any premed programs or foundation, or matriks or stpm, etc, etc. The 1st 3 years you'll be studying pre clinical, theory and exam based. And the latter 3 years it's clinical years, where you'd be doing more hands on work in hospitals and so on.  I came here after finishing asasi  so i was a year late in my batch. But lots of people came here after finishing asasi, there are a few people who is older than me because they finished their A levels first. So I'm gonna say that don't let this reason hold you back. Even if there are no one who's the same age as you I'm sure y'all gonna get along just fine. I ca...

Nobody said it was going to be easy. We expected it. But to experience it ourselves, that was the hardest part. To deal with people with different cultures, different habits, different status quo, and most hellish part is, the different languages . Of course, a language barrier is the most difficult thing to adapt with in a new place (especially for people who loves to talk l, like  me). It's like a dog tying to communicate with a duck. This made me regret , why ohh why didn't I study Arabic well during my school years. But yeah, there's no use in regretting anyway. So anybody, who's studying foreign language out there, study well cause you'll never know when you're going to need it. So, most Egyptians that I met is friendly (not all, but most, for now), but then of course for different reasons. 1. They are interested because we somehow look "different" and foreigners 2. They're simply tryin to be friendly. 3. They're tryin to make a f...

I don't just see, I watch. Also, an overthinker. Have you ever thought, why is it that we always said the phrase "alienated", giving meaning that someone or something is left out. What if, the so called 'aliens' called themselves humans first? And we are actually called aliens on their world. If so, what if, we were the ones who landed on their planet? does that means we're 'humanated' rather than 'alienated' ?

Sometimes i wish life is just a dream where you can wake up. And when you wake up, everything's okay. Just like the korean drama you just finished watching, the english movie you watched at the cinema last week, the malay novels you read when you were in high school,everything ended up okay. Sometimes what we yearn for is not great, or awesome, sometimes okay is just right. Because okay would be better than nightmares. We don't yearn for sweet dreams, we want it all to be eventually okay. Because okay seems possible. Okay seems reachable. Okay seems livable. Yes, okay, i can live with that. I just want everything to be okay. Maybe okay can make me happy.