A tribute to a person I barely knew

Al- Fatihah. To Muhammad Hafiz Izzuddin Bin Hasin.
Who left this world in the morning of 13 Ramadhan 1438, around 1 o'clock in the morning.

He was young, my age to be exact. I didn't know arwah personally.
Actually I didn't know him at all.
Yet, I felt this loss and grieve which is new to me.
Maybe it's because he was the same age as I am.
Maybe because he went to the same foundation as I did.
It's strange how I could actually be in the same place as this person yet, we never crossed paths.
Even when my friends mention his name at me, There wasn't a spark in my brain that could trigger any memory of him. Not even a flicker.

But strangely, in the past week, I kept thinking i should visit him.
I even tell my wishes to one of my housemate, that I felt bad for not visiting him, for not knowing him eventhough we studied in the same university for two years.
My housemates told me it's okay, maybe you should go visit him, along with anther one of my foundation mate who was pretty close to him.
But I was reluctant, very. Because he also didn't knew me. I was not one of the social person when I was in my foundation years, so to turn on a new leaf and actually be comfortable with it, I wasn't ready.
Little did I know that my my hesitation, led me to visit him, when he is not in this world anymore.
I am sorry for not being able to know you, for not even trying to know you, and I certainly hoped that your last days were moments that were worth holding on to.
I didnt get to know you, but according to your friends, you were a wonderful person.
May Allah place you with org org yg beriman , innalillah ;'(


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